Recently i had a debate with my dad (again), it was about feeling happy. At the end of it, I suddenly realised that i haven't felt truely happy in a very long while, makes me wonder about the meaning of this existence on earth, are we here simply to partake in the motions that propel society forward? are we here to feel the emotions that the human mind with all its intricate mesh of chemicals is capable of? are we here to be happy?

Often i find myself repeating to others that one shouldn't be too happy, actually one shouldn't be happy at all. When we are happy, we bcome too busy being happy to think.

As i walked out yesterday, i thought to myself about what happened through the day, and it dawned on me that many people move around aimlessly, without a real reason. In our modern, fast-paced society, have we forgotten what we really want? Do we know what we really want?Life works in a wonderful way, what we do is directly a result of the circumstances that we are in.

That in turn decides how the future will be. what does this actually mean? If we know what we want, we can actually plan a list of activities / steps / moves to plan and control the outcomes and to get what we want.Sounds familliar? well it should, every one of us should have a boss/ colleague who fits this profile, a go-getter who know what he/she wants... ... and in that process, uses the others who have no idea what they want to help attain their goal.

What do we normally call these people? Back-stabbers, Traitors, dogs, but hey is it their fault that they know what they want? Often i find myself in a wierd position, in my attempt to make life horrible for these traitors/ dogs/ shits/ etc., i am stuck with not being able to do what i want,... how bad isit? well i recently changed what i want ... ... hey but maybe meeting these jokers just told me what i really wanted... ...If we know what we want, do we need to ask others for their opinion? almost everyone does that byt is it really necessary? What a waste of time....ok next time then....